If Only.

I do not want to be like you, yet I want what you have, I don't think it's necessary, yet it's something I crave,

Sad. Sadness, the lack of joy, the hole that creates the void in my mind and soul

A soul once free, but now bound and gagged by treacherous beings such as responsibility Adulting is hard

I always have to be there for someone or be considerate of others

But this has caused me to lose faith in the belief that, "What you do unto others, shall be done unto you"

Who am I kidding?

What am I doing?

I know, existing without living, being without experiencing

What is it like to truly be human

Desires of the flesh concern not I

But rather, the desire of the fire burning bright in one's heart that brings out the best during the worst

That, but yet it escapes me, I cry If only, I knew what was wrong, why am I unhappy?

I'd do anything to fix it, to feel pure jubilee Maybe that's why people like parties Helps them forget the transgressions of the world But I'm not sure that's for me

But if only you can see If only I can be what you want me to be If only..........................